Haster. S 沈立偉

【Severe bipolar disorder transition Gospel Songwriter】

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When it comes to the birth of the song 'You deserve it', the process was actually quite bumpy. Before creating the song 'You deserve it', I was the marketing director of a well-known tutoring industry. The monthly management bonuses and bonuses earned from achieving monthly revenue were enough to earn a million dollar annual salary.

But the good times didn't last long. I was caught off guard by illness, and extreme bipolar disorder caused my emotions to constantly fluctuate between manic disorder and severe depression. At first, I couldn't judge things, couldn't control my emotions, and finally got laid off. I couldn't do anything but stay at home and constantly hurt myself.

After losing my job, I stayed at home every day and cried to God, asking why God wanted to destroy the foundation I had finally built, and why I would be entangled in such a serious illness. Such a condition made me afraid of the crowd and afraid to go out. After the medication took effect, I was in a coma all day. The cost of living, various medical expenses, and the debt burden filled me with despair in life, I have chosen various suicide methods to seek liberation, but God's arrangement has prevented me from leaving this world, and neither method will ultimately succeed

God sent a devout and loving sister to my side, to bear hardships and hardships for me, but without any regrets or grievances

Never give up, pray for me, build my shattered life with the words of the Bible. This selfless love gives me hope until Jesus himself comes to me

In 2022, God moved me and made me hear 12 Gospel songs from the Heavenly Kingdom. Among them, 'You deserve it' is the first of these 12 songs.

I will never forget that thanks to God's grace that gave me the ability to create, I have been constantly seeking answers from God. The answer is that only gospel songs from heaven can truly move people's hearts through the songs, allowing lost people (whether Christians or non Christians) to return to God's path, allowing those on the brink of judgment to recognize their sins, confess, repent, and be reborn.

The first song 'You deserve it' has been completed under the guidance of God. It is a note that makes people feel shocked and moved from the bottom of their hearts, combined with the desire to express gratitude to God and the belief in God's glory for everything God has given them. I believe that this song can not only make everyone who hears it feel good, but also truly feel the longing of their soul and the pouring of God's power.